Once Mine

There’s a strange silence in the spaces you once filled. Some days, it feels like I still carry on conversations with you in my mind, telling you how my day went, asking how yours was. I wonder if you do the same, or if your world has moved on, as it should. I hope it has. You deserve joy without hesitation, love without burden. I remember how you used to look at me, like I was someone who mattered. And I did, to you. That truth both heals me and haunts me. You were ready to build a life together. You had dreams, and I was in them. But I was standing at a crossroads, holding too many responsibilities and too much fear. I chose to stay behind, and let you walk ahead. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I had just said yes. But I didn’t. And now, all I can do is send my love quietly through these words, hoping they find a way to reach the part of you that still remembers. Be well. Be at peace. And if by chance you ever miss me, know this: you are not alone in that feeling Y.Y

You are in my heart, you always have been, and always will be. I’ve thought about writing to you many times, but I never found the right words. Even now, I’m not sure these are enough. You were more than a friend. You were the one I loved, the one I still love in ways I cannot explain. We didn’t end up together, not because I didn’t care, but because I believed I couldn’t give you the life you dreamed of. You had wishes, a heart full of hope, and I… I had responsibilities, people depending on me, a duty I couldn’t turn away from. I feared that choosing us would mean failing them, and that failing you would be even worse. You tried. You waited. You gave me every chance. And still, I let you go. There’s no day I don’t carry the weight of that decision. But please know, my greatest wish, then and now, is that you smile when you think of me, just as I do when I think of you. Wherever you are, I hope the world is kind to you. And if your heart ever wonders, yes, you were loved, deeply and c...